October 2, 2010

It's Over

at 4.20pm tadi, terase saket senggugot dan sgt tajam dkt rahim aku.

astu ade rase cecair2 keluar.

aku teros cam nervous.

gi toilet.

check.

dah period.

darah itam2.

but anywayy,

im still going to see the doctor to take another 2nd round of femara.

alhamdulillah, at least, aku period.

and tak mcm haritu, means, im all fine already!

its ok we can try again!

hmm sayang nye kan? takpe takpe takpe

we already know what works for me. so boleh try again. :)

October 1, 2010

TakFaham.

Aku rase aku tak pregnant.

aku dpt 3 faint positives drp 27hb, 28hb, dan 29hb. tapi guna guardian nye test je.  kalau test pakai brand lain, negative. so adakah guardian nye test semua mmg kuar positive walaupon org itu tidak mengandung? tapi last week aku ada try test dgn guardian jugak sbb nak check hcg trigger aritu dah kuar drp badan ke belom. and dua2 test tu negative, kosong mmg takde line lansong. so aku sure time tu hcg trigger dah out of the system n kalau ade line lepas minggu tu, it is not a false positive. tapi kenape skang bile guna test stick lain tak positive pon?

berhantu ke pregnancy test ni?

i've read about evaporation lines. which before ni aku penah konfius about. yep, pregnancy test cannot be read after the TIME LIMIT. sebab after time limit, lepas test stick tu dah kering, kdg2 mcm nampak ade line dkt test window tu.

aku bace byk forum melayu psl pregnancy, yg masih lagi ade kesengalan kat mereka2 yg mcm aku yg susah pregnant. dah buat test, bile tgk negatif, buang dlm tong sampah. lepastu gi korek blk dlm tongsampah tu and buat2 surprise bende tu ade 2 line yg samar. aku penah mcm ni dulu, mase baru2 kawin. mase tu mmg tattau ape itu Evaporation Line.

tapi line samar yg kuar within 5minutes frame, adalah line positive.and aku just dpt line tu drp guardian nye one step pregnancy test je. aku dah guna clear blue, dipNtell, semua negative. clear blue yg jual kat msia ni sensitivity dia 50mIU and dipNtell tu aku taktau tapi aku rase 100mIU sbb same mcm yg klinik2 guna. guardian nye test lak, mmg ade tulis sensitivity dia as low as 25mIU pon die leh detect.

mungkin hcg level aku low.

mungkin aku chemical lagi.

mungkin ectopic? simpang malaikat.

selambe je la request for blood test. menyampah kekadang nak intepret 2 line ke 1 line ke samar ke tak ke.

ptg ni lepas keje nak gi. aku akan bersedia utk menerima jawapan drp doctor yg aku tak pregnant. n ada something else has gone wrong.

September 28, 2010

CD 28

Semalam Cycle Day 28, hari sepatotnye aku period. sbb kalau ikot medication tu mmg tepat2 28 hari 28 hari je semua kan.

so smlm adalah hari ke 28. tapi takde ape2. pagi sampai ptg aku takde ape2 simtom yg pelik kecuali rase lapar which is drp raya aritu pon asik lapar je. aku dah beli hpt 2 jenis 4 sticks. biar kasi puas ati. dkt2 nak magerib smlm baru aku rase lain mcm, mcm nak senggugot astu rase mcm ade cecair2 dah kuar. ingatkan dah period. check kat toilet, takde ape2. cecair2 keputihan je. maybe cervical mucous. so aku malas nak stress aku pi buat hpt dgn guardian nye.

ini adalah keputusannye dlm 5minits time frame.



ini adalah line samar2 yg sama yg mcm last april. dgn pregnancy test yg same. so aku taknak percaye sgt walaupon samar2 kalini lebih terang drp last april tu. aku asik2 nak belek hpt ni nak tgk berubah tak line tu. aku tunjok laki aku pon dia ckp "hak ah! ada!"

tapi aku taknak caye sgt dah. jadi pagi ini aku check lagi dgn hpt "dip & tell" yg check guna kertas litmus biase je tu. kalau hcg hormon aku strong, mesti dah positive dgn terang. tapi aku mmg taknak pikir positive dulu. aku teros think negative.

so keluar la negative. maybe hpt tu yg tak detech hcg hormon lagi sbb baru awal sgt kot? or mmg chemical pregnancy lagi? aku tak gitau laki aku pon psl pagi ni aku check negative sbb nnt die frust lagi. so aku diam dulu. nak kompem pon takleh sbb aku bace kat forum, atleast tunggu 7 days. tapi yg membuatkan aku fikir still ade 'hope' lagi ialah komen2 org yg penah experience bende same mcm aku.

Apple Seed - Just wondering what's going on with my body. Last night it was a strong  and tested this morning and nothing. My body is whacked.

Krissi - Sorry hun, a lot of people say they get a stronger line with evening urine then morning. Try again tonight, hope it turns out to be a sticky bean xx

WantababyBump - I had a bfp one day then 2 bfns the same night and then bfn the next day then got a bfp again and I was actually pregnant...good luck xo

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oh? ni first time aku dgr ade org kata petang-mlm punye urine lebih strong drp pagi? ok gitu ESOK malam baru aku test lagi kalau belom period.