How to make CLOMID work.

Some clomid TIPS and INFO for myself. will start clomid this 6 September after 2 cycles of Diane35. Ya Allah, tabahkan lah hati kami.

-------Taken from BabyMed.com

Making Clomiphene (Clomid) Work For You

August 30, 2008

- posted by Dr Amos

Clomiphene Clomid is a medication to induce ovulation and then hopefully get you pregnant. Many women take clomiphene citrate (Clomid) and don't know what it does and how to take it.

The most important thing to know about clomiphene citrate (Clomid) is that it is a medication to induce ovulation. Nothing else. Ovulation, the BIG O. Not fertility. Not necessarily pregnancy. Ovulation.
Clomiphene is not a fertility medication. It will not get you pregnant in and by itself. All that clomiphene is supposed to do (and it doesn't do it all the time) is that it is supposed to make you ovulate. Obviously, you can only get pregnant if you first ovulate and that is why women take clomiphene, but first things first: Clomid is supposed to make you ovulate. Getting pregnant is much more complicated.

Hot TIP: Do a sperm count before starting to take Clomid. It makes no sense taking Clomid when he has a low sperm count!
Before taking Clomid you should have some tests done to make sure you take it for the right reasons.
If you don't get pregnant on clomiphene that doesn't mean it did not work. It may have worked and it may have made you ovulate but pregnancy in and by itself is not the only measure that clomiphene worked.

Getting pregnant is more complicated than just ovulation. In order to get pregnant the following has to happen:

1. You need to ovulate and your egg quality has to be good (am sure enough egg quality is not that good)


2. He has to have enough and good enough sperms (done-sperm's perfect)


3. You fallopian tubes must be open for sperms and egg to meet (they're open)

So how do you know that Clomid has worked? (Hint: Read above. What is is supposed to do? Make you ovulate). You ovulate on clomiphene that means it worked. You did not ovulate it did not work. Yes, it's that simple. In fact, not every woman will ovulate on clomiphene and many women who ovulate will not get pregnant. With or without clomiphene.

Obviously if you get pregnant then you know that you did ovulate, but let's not get ahead of this.

Women who take clomiphene (Clomid) must first know if they ovulate or not.

So let's start at the beginning: You take clomiphene for 5 days (usually cycle days 5-9 but you can start taking clomiphene as early as cycle day 2). Ovulation is then supposed to happen about 5-9 days later. Don't know exactly when? Check ourInteractive Clomid Calculator.
How do you know you ovulate? There are several ways to find out if and when you ovulate:

1. Calculation: Ovulation and Fertility Charting and Calculator


2. Temperature Charting


3. Cervical Mucus Changes


4. Ovulation Pain: Mittelschmerz


5. OPK Ovulation Predictor Kit


6. Blood Progesterone Test


7. Ultrasound Exams of Ovaries

Read more about typical Ovulation Symptoms HERE.

When to increase Clomid?
Most doctors start Clomid at 50 mg a day for 5 days. If you do ovulate on Clomid (the # 1 most important information when taking Clomid!) then there is no need to increase it in the next cycle. If you do NOT ovulate on Clomid, then your doctor often increases Clomid in the next cycle. Increasing Clomid when you are already ovulating on a lower dose is not only unneccessary, but it could in fact decrease your chances getting pregnant.

Your menstrual period and ovulation

With or without clomiphene, your menstrual period is supposed to come 14 days after ovulation. There are 3 scenarios you must know about when trying to get pregnant:

Scenario#1: You ovulate and did NOT get pregnant: Your menstrual period will arrive about 14 days after the day of ovulation.
Scenario#2: You ovulate and get pregnant. Your menstrual bleeding, your period will not arrive 15+ days after the day of ovulation.
Scenario#3: You did NOT ovulate. If you don't ovulate then you will usually not get a regular period. You may bleed or spot irregularly but it's not a menstrual period.

MY Scenario on Clomid last April: I dont know i ovulated or not. but i did get a positive hpt. so i probably ovulated. But it ended up chemical prgnancy. And I dont get my regular period. I only have irregular spottings after 1 and a half month later. so what is this means.

Our recommendation

Before you start taking clomiphene to induce ovulation do the following:

1. A cycle day 3 FSH to make sure your eggs have a good enough quality - THANKS FOR THE TIP


2. A sperm count


3. Make sure your fallopian tubes are open.

No matter how well clomiphene works to make you ovulate, you will have difficulties getting pregnant unless you have good enough quality eggs, his sperms are OK and your tubes are open.

Odds Of Getting Pregnant With Polycystic Ovaries

Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, known as PCOS for short and also known as PCOD or Polycystic Ovarian Disease, is one of the leading causes of infertility among women. While research has not yet determined how to cure for PCOS, it may be possible for a woman with PCOS to increase her odds of getting pregnant with the right treatment or treatments.

When trying to get pregnant, most women with PCOS will not experience any major problems. However, for those that do, PCOS can be an extremely frustrating condition. PCOS can cause a variety of problems, from a delay in conception to higher miscarriage rates to complications with pregnancy. For some women, the first symptoms of PCOS are that they are having very few or even no periods. This typically is measured by having less than 9 periods in a twelve month timeframe. Some women with PCOS will have no period whatsoever. Some women with polycystic ovarian disease will have regular periods, but may not ovulate every month, or at all.

One of the most popular treatments for infertility in women with polycystic ovaries is Clomid. Clomid is used to stimulate ovulation. Clomid will help around 4 out of 5 women ovulate, and can greatly increase a woman’s odds of getting pregnant. Around 45% of women with PCOS who use Clomid will be able to conceive within four to six cycles. Clomid does carry an increased risk of having a multiple or twin pregnancy.

If Clomid does not successfully treat infertility, the next step is often to use hormones to try to stimulate the ovaries into producing eggs. Here again, this treatment, referred to as ovarian stimulation, carries the risk of multiple or twin pregnancy.

There is a surgical procedure that is similar to ovarian stimulation. Known as Overian drilling, this operation uses the making of several small holes in each ovary with a fine probe or laser. For some women, this can restore ovulation, or at least make their ovaries more likely to respond to Clomid. Somewhere around 60% of women with PCOS will experience success with ovarian drilling or ovarian stimulation, and have regular cycles after the treatments, if there are not any additional problems with fertility.

A more radical procedure, IVF or in vitro fertilization, remains an option for a woman who has not responded to other treatments and wants to get pregnant. The success rates of IVF can vary greatly depending on a variety of individual factors, including the length of infertility, weight, and age.

Getting pregnant with Polycystic Ovaries can be challenging. However, the methods listed above greatly increase the odds that a woman with polycystic overies has of getting pregnant.

TGIF

Smlm gi umah aini ada makan2 sempena besday adam yg ke 1. besooo dah adam. hehehe rambot pon dah panjang ala2 leh wat jambol superman kat depan. :P

aku sampai opis 745 arinih. bapak awal. sampai2 teros bedal nasiklemak. aku xjadi puase arinih sbb aku tak sahor tadi. disebabkan aku xmakan byk kat umah aini smlm, pagi ni aku lapa gile. sambil2 bedal nasiklemak , aku bukak la harian metro online. sbb tattau ape nak bace pagi2 ni. oh tattau lak aku ade column utk pakar sakit puan. mcm2 la masalah org psl sakit puan diajukan dkt doktor yg tukang jawap kat situ. aku rase bagos kalau aku simpan semua info tu dlm ni. aku letak dekat Infertility dlm blog aku nih. senang nak paham sbb dlm BM. heheheh. kdg2 ade certain term bahase sains dlm english yg aku terkial2 nak paham. (tapi bile die translet jadi BM, kdg2 aku lebeh xpaham lak). Seperti rawatan permanian berhadas. aku cam Apebende nih? IUI rupenye.

Aku ni kdg2 obsessed la sgt. Bile aku pikir keadaan orglain, lagi payah. Aku jadi obsessed mgkin sbb aku slalu bandingkan diri aku dgn org yg lebih bernasib baik. aku rase cara aku salah. bile aku buat mcm tu aku lebih stress. baik aku bandingkan diri aku dgn orglain yg lebih terok nasibnye drp aku. Contohnya, better aku bandingkan diri aku dgn

• org yg disahkan mandul. kerana dah buang rahim or sebab2 lain.


• org yg buat IUI byk kali, dan IVF byk kali, masih tak lekat. duit dah abis berpuloh ribu.


• org yg kematian suami, lepas kawin baru beberape bulan..tapi xpe die leh kawin balik n dpt anak. tapi grief dia tu mungkin ambik mase lame nak recover.

bile aku bace masalah2 orglain yg lagi dasat drp aku, teros aku cam rasa takpe, perjalanan aku masih jaoh lagi. rezki masing2 semua taksama. aku masih mude, aku tidak merokok, aku tidak ade masalah kegemokkan melampau atau obese, aku sihat, dan masalah aku boleh cure dgn medication/treatment. laki aku merokok tapi sperm dia sihat walafiat, mengalahkan org yg tak merokok lak.

so harap bersabar lah jay.

Duh

aku dpt from forum hamidarshat

Title: Re: Trying To Conceive (TTC)

Post by: ~~shakina~~ on February 08, 2009, 05:21:00 PM

imah asal ambik pil perancang tuh

kan ker mu nk getting pregnant buat apa nk ambik pil tuh untuk stabilkan period, sbb dia akan matikan telor jugak kan kalau tak silap, dah nama pun pil perancang

naper tak cuba minum bidadari ker, biodex ker, jus kurma ker or macam2 yg leh wat period regular

kalau ambik pil eu yan sang pun leh gak kan......

Title: Re: Trying To Conceive (TTC)

Post by: IBU 2"U" on February 08, 2009, 05:23:50 PM

kinah, bagi org yg period x regular, mmg kene amik pil perancang, n doktor byk sarankan sapa PCOS amik pil perancang bagi regularkan period..

Title: Re: Trying To Conceive (TTC)

Post by: ~~shakina~~ on February 08, 2009, 05:34:32 PM

tapi kan ker dia melemahkan telor, confius aku

Title: Re: Trying To Conceive (TTC)

Post by: IBU 2"U" on February 08, 2009, 05:54:17 PM

x silap aku dia blok dr telur menetas..tp pas stop je, dia akan immediate menetas balik.

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eee...

bengong aa minah ni. i wonder umor die brapa. kalau budak2 baru 21-24 tahon takpe kot kalau takpaham. tahpape2. konpiden je ckp pil perancang melemahkan telor. kalau telor lemah, mcm mana boleh PERIOD. NGOK!

kalau telor lemah, PERIOD pon takdtg! X-( maghah! kesian lak aku baca. naseb dah lame. kalau benda ni latest aku sanggop email pompuan ni.lagi ckp "kenape tak ambik biodex ke, bidadari ke.." DUH?

naseb yg tukang jawap tu pandai.

aku dah google merate2, DIANE35 (birthcontroll pill) is the strongest drug yg boleh treat PCOS terutame skali yg TTC and ramai org after 2-3 cycle of treatment berjaya conceive sbb hormon dah regular balik. (after stopping).

aku tgh pikir nak ambik for 2 or 3 cycle...sebab kalau 2 cycle, 15-18 Sep ni kitorg gi australia :D ngehh..tu time subor kalau aku dah stat clomid before tu. :D

(beriye buat anak sampai australia)

tapi kalau tak berjaye? kang kene lak aku ambik lagi diane, lagi lambat! eh tapi kene tunggu aku period ke tak the coming cycle without diane tu..kalau dah 2 cycle treatment tak ok gak hormon aku. kene lak try for 3 cycle..

kalau aku conceive end of september, anak aku lahir bulan 6. leh same besday dgn hana.!

hahaa...yer2 je lah aku ni.

Hai.

Amat lah bosan arinih.

Takde benda nak citer sbenanyer.

Aku lapar.

Makan ubat2 ni slalu membuatkan aku lapar.

2 3 hari lepas aku ganti pose, ade lagi 5 hari. gagaga..harini aku janji nak pose tapi aku tipu.

sbb aku malas bangon sahor. dulu aku takde hal leh pose kalau tak bangon sahor.

tibe2 skang ni payah gile. maybe sejak2 menjak ni aku asik makan. so aku sng lapar kalau lambat makan.

pagi2 kol 7 tadi perot aku dah kruk krek2. mule la pagi2 aku dah terbayang brekpes MCD dan zinger burger KFC bagai.

akhirnye aku beli nasik goreng  kat cafe gak. konon jimat. (sbenanye dah kering) hahaha

tgh hari tadi gi jalan2 kat komplek mcm biase la dgn org2 opis aku. slalunye kitorg mkn kat bumbong. lepas makan leh cuci2 mate jap. aku beli lagi magazine wanita. aku slalu beli lak skg. sbenanye sbb aku nak bace iklan dan tgk testimonial org yg dah gune biodex. happy lak aku bace. ade yg kawin 11 tahon, ade yg kawin 3 4 tahon, ade yg baru kawin 6 bulan (pon sebok nak bagi testimonial mcm la perjalanan dia payah beno stakat 6bulan kawin) tapi aku tetap happy utk diorg ni. aku kdg berangan kalau la aku pregnant gak dgn biodex aku pon nak gak antar citer aku kat majalah tu. tak pon aku teros letak link blog ni je kat testi tu. hahaha. tapi kire diorg ni sunggoh tabah and mungkin mmg saving duit byk utk beli biodex ni. sbb tak semua yg baru try teros pgnant..kebanyakkan dlm 3 4 kali beli gak..wah mau dkt 1000+ gak tu

tapi yg aku dok gi klinik pon sama gak tah2 lebeh 1000 dah. tapi yg bestnye aku leh claim 50% kalau gi klinik kan. kalau beli biodex mane leh claim? heheh..btol2..kalau gi gomen, lagi la byr sket jek..tapi tak kose lak aku tunggu lame2 utk gi gomen. asal bole gi private sbb taknak tunggu lame. kalau aku jenis yg keje bizi takpe la gak kalau gi gomen..dlm in between apoinment tu aku leka buat keje, takde la terase sgt lame dok tunggu next apoinmen. ni aku gi keje kol 8 balik kol 5 and balik umah tgk tv. hari2 rutin mcm tu.

aku plan kalau tahon dpn pon aku masih tak pregnant aku mesti buat sesuatu utk mengisi mase lapang selain drp tgk tv. aku mesti buat something dgn laki aku. berniage ke? tapi nnt penat..ala byk la alasan aku. nnt la aku pikir. tapi aku rase aku nak buat something..kalau tak takkan sampai bile2 asik tgk tv je. aku dah jarang lepak sgt dah skg mlm2 or pegi2 jamming. aku biarkan je bandmate aku yg lain yg masih aktif bermuzik ni proceed dgn keje diorg. diorg nak perform ke, nak recording ke, pegi lah. laki aku kdg2 mcm bengang je tgk aku mcm lemau taknak join muzik ni semua lagi. sedangkan dia masih nak bermain musik sbb dia mmg minat. aaah, baik aku ajor dia ambik gambar lagi bagos.

tapi yg bagosnye laki aku ni kdg2 die lebeh sonok amek gamba dgn aku sbb atleast duit masok. drp gi jamming, perform free semua tu, buang duit gak kan. skg dah kawin ni kene la pikir gak semua ni. kalau dok bujang makbapak jenis kaya raya ko kangkang je pon makbapak kasi duit takpe. ini zaman nak gune duit, baik aku takyah main muzik sgt.

aku sbenanye lupe ape tujuan aku nak anak. aku patot letak no 1 dlm entry bawah2 ni yg Kenape Nak Anak tu.

aku nak quit main musik sbenanye.

tapi disebabkan aku masih lom ade anak and kdg2 bosan tahap gaban, bile bandmate aku ajak perform kdg2 aku join jugak. ala bukannye perform kat gig pon, stakat kat cafe tempat org makan2. org makan sambil tgk kite. astu kite dpt makan free. ok lah tu.

haha..

tapi aku takmo amalkan sgt dah skang. byk lagi benda lain leh buat. nak main musik kat umah pon bole. sampai dah karat tali gitar aku tu, takde aku heran pon nak gi tukar. baik aku simpan duit utk minyak kete :P

Provera

Starting Clomid

• Clomid is started early in the menstrual cycle and is taken for five days either from cycle days 3 through 7, or from day 5 through 9


• Clomid is usually started at a dose of one tablet (50mg) daily - taken any time of day

Increasing Clomid Dosage (if needed)

• If the patient does not ovulate on the starting dose, Provera is often given to induce a period - then a 100mg dose of Clomid is tried
  
  


• If she does not ovulate on a 100 mg dose, then 150mg is sometimes tried

tidak ke bodoh aku tak diberi provera nih?

ke sbb doc ckp aku miscarriage so dia tak bagi aku provera tuh? maybe doc ingat aku ni leh period dgn sendiri nyaa kot. dah tentu aa aku selame sejak kawin ni period dgn ubat sahaja. tak pon doc tak berani nak bg provera sbb takot lagi memudaratkan kot.

abeh same gak skang sah2 kene PCOS lak. ade treatment utk PCOS ni org gune provera. mungkin dia sgt strong kot so aku kene try yg kurang strong dulu....ahhh..

FSH & LH

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taken from wikipedia

Activity

FSH regulates the development, growth, pubertal maturation, and reproductive processes of the human body.

• In both males and females, FSH stimulates the maturation of germ cells.

• In males, FSH induces Sertoli cells to secrete inhibin and stimulates the formation of sertoli-sertoli tight junctions (zonula occludens).

• In females, FSH initiates follicular growth, specifically affecting granulosa cells. With the concomitant rise in inhibin B, FSH levels then decline in the late follicular phase. This seems to be critical in selecting only the most advanced follicle to proceed to ovulation. At the end of the luteal phase, there is a slight rise in FSH that seems to be of importance to start the next ovulatory cycle.

Like its partner LH, FSH release at the pituitary gland is controlled by pulses of gonadotropin-releasing hormone (GnRH). Those pulses, in turn, are subject to the oestrogen feed-back from the gonads.

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i've heard of this. but never thought of that it is related to ovulation. i think im lack of FSH or LH. sebab tu dia tak release. and stuck. and mr. PCOS came.

FSH stimulates the growth and recruitment of immature Ovarian follicles in the ovary. In early (small) antral follicles, FSH is the major survival factor that rescues the follicles fromapoptosis (programmed death of the somatic cells of the follicle and oocyte). In the luteal-follicle phase transition period the serum levels of progesterone and estrogen (primarily estradiol) decrease and no longer suppress the release of FSH, consequently FSH peaks at about day three (day one is the first day of menstrual flow). The cohort of small antral follicles is normally sufficiently in number to produce enough Inhibin B to lower FSH serum levels.

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When the follicle matures and reaches 8-10 mm in diameter it starts to secrete significant amounts of estradiol. Normally in humans only one follicle becomes dominant and survives to grow to 18-30 mm in size and ovulate, the remaining follicles in the cohort undergo atresia.

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So now i know when Dr Karamjeet did the sonogram on me to check the development after clomid response, dia ckp my follicles were only 10-12mm. tak cukop size.

so there is no point of injection kot. rasenye dia kena inject FSH/LH ni la.

FSH ni maybe sbb mahal, so dia tak inject dulu. LPPKN pon dah 100++, kalau private maybe lebeh lagi la.

takpe i'll remember to ask about FSH/LH injection lepas ni. if i need it or not.

aku rase yg plg tepat ialah LH kot. LH ni la keje dia utk mem-BURST-kan follicle supaye keluarnye ovum utk ke falopion tube. Pil perancang halang pengeluaran hormon LH. sebab tu la follicle tu tak pecah utk discharge an ovum. HISH aku ni buat ape tah mase sains kat skolah dulu! takpasal2 aku buat rumusan psl benda yg dah blaja dulu2 plak..hehehe.

so, period terjadi sebab CORPUS LUTEUM (follicle yg dah mati dan ovum di dalamnye tidak dilepaskan) jadi darah.

so, a normal period pon, doesnt mean that we ovulated. so we need the LH!

tapi tak jugak. i also need FSH sebab gunanya utk membesarkan follicles..hm betol2..tugas CLOMID pon dah mmg utk stimulate FSH & LH tinggal lagi aku ni tak cukop 100mg tu. sbb tu la kene up lagi. and if necessary, needs the FSH/LH injection. optional kot injection tu. alaa PCOS have nothing to do with whether i got the injections or not laa. its not bcoz of i didnt get injected i got PCOS. aku mmg ada penyaket PCOS tu and injection doesnt make anything better. kalau aku dpt injection tu pon, follicles aku kecik. mane boleh ovulate? buatpe doc nak inject pon kan?

agaknye dr sudha tanye sbb just nak make sure kot. sbb dah aku ckp aku dpt positive lepas tu kan. and maybe akak2 opis aku dpt injection tu sbb follicles dia cukop besar!

ok.

sudah

faham.

sekian.

Congrats, Hana.

hana pregnant anak no 2. tahniah. (refer entry 'Mimpi' bawah ni) mimpi kawan ko tu jadi kenyataan. mimpi aku lak tidak jadi kenyataan tapi mungkin maksod mimpi tu nak gitau aku ade pcos ni. sbb tu la aku mimpi nampak byk pregnancy test yg positif. rupenye ada byk follicles yg stuck dlm ovary aku. huhuhu. maryam dah nak jadi kakak dah. :)

Who are you, PCOS?

Confirmed,

aku ada PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. or PCO.

aku dah tau kewujudan penyakit ni sejak tahon lepas lagi. sejak aku baru 6 bulan kawin.  ade la doc yg kate "u ni mmg dilahirkan period tak betol" tu bagitau. doc ni yg ckp aku MAYBE ada. tapi die tak check sgt. so aku balik2 teros google apekah symtom2 PCOS. yg common ialah overweight, which im not, muke dan badan byk bulu, LAGILAH tak, period tak betol-ni je yg mmg yer. so aku assume oh aku takde kot menda ni. dah tu doc ni pegi bagi aku Progyluton. dia ni doc biasa je. aku rase sbb tu lah kite perlu jumpe pakar.

bile aku dah jumpe pakar, mereka berkata Progyluton ni takbrape bagos n biase nye medication ni diorg bagi kat org yg dah 40+ ke atas. ubat yg sepatotnye utk aku ialah Diane35. (pil perancang). aku baru skali je ambik, lepas tu dr rafi teros bagi clomid plak.

9 july aritu, lepas balik keje, aku nekad nak gi jugak klinik umra balik. (kat bawah ni yg aku ckp nak gi klinik tu aku takjadi pegi sbb malas. akhirnye aku decide kene pegi jugak) before aku pegi tu aku dah call dulu nak tanye dr rafi ade tak. diorg ckp takde. yg ade dr Niraj (adek dr rafi). aku pon cam blasah je la. better jumpe dr lain so leh dengar different opinion & suggestions.

bile aku dah sampai2 jek, diorg ckp dr niraj dah balik plak! hohoh. yg tinggal, dr Sudha. mase tu aku malas nak pikir. aku teros ckp Sape2 je laaa doc yg ada. (kdg2 aku berbulu sket dgn staff klinik nih. dah la mase aku dtg mule2 tu kate Eh Dr Rafi ade!" tak lame pastu "eh tak tak, dr rafi takde"

korang keje camne ni schedule doctor pon korang takde ke? hish!

ok2 sambong. before jumpe dr sudha ni, mcm biase la diorg timbang aku semua. Wah dah turon 3kg plak! gagaga. 46kg dah. heheh :P maybe sbb aku ikot nasihat aini, kurangkan makan nasik. :P

Then Dr Sudha pon panggil. die tgk record aku semua drp awal aku dtg, medication ape yg aku dah ambik sampai la citer psl aku gugor tu. aku tanye lagi skali "dr, saye period sebulan setengah lepas saye tau saye gugor, tu pon mild spotting je utk 2 3 hari. ok ke mcm tu?"

"hmm mmg la ade org mmg lambat sket darah turon, but we have to check la if u have blood clots ke tak dkt uterus u. tapi atleast u period jugak kan?"

"ye laa tapi sikit sgt je doctor..bukan suppose kuar darah ketol2 ke?"

"tak semestinya"

ok so a GYNAE yg ckp mcm tu. aku biase sgt dgr assumptions2 org yg BUKAN doctor berkate EHHH BAHAYE LAA, MANE BOLEEE PATOTNYE KUAR KETOL2 BLABLABLA KENA D&C la ape laa...(mesti ada salah sorg diantara korang penah ckp camtu kat aku kan) hehe, sbenanye itu yg COMMON. aku nye kes, tidak common. rare. sbb aku mmg byk search kat intenet mmg tak semua org teros bleeding lepas gugor yg awal2 tu.. tapi kebanyakan org, mmg teros bleeding. maybe sbb kandungan gugor mase dah besar or more than 6weeks so mmg darah akan turon dgn heavy. tapi itu pon, akak sdare aku baby dah takde mase 3 bulan. tapi dia carry baby tu sampai 5bulan. 2 bulan lepas tu baru bleeding. so? its rare but it happens.

aku mcm biase teros tunjok calendar period aku kat dia. so that sng die nak tgk. die ckp period aku mase awal2 kawin tu normal sbenanye walaupon 2 bulan skali. cycle tu mcm lame la tapi normal katenye. lepas a few months tu baru tak ok. then die kate aku mmg ada hormonal imbalance sbb tu la bile ambik ubat baru period. pastu die ckp

"u might have what we call PCOS, or PCO..do u know that?"

"tau2. dulu pernah ade doc ckp saye mungkin ada tapi tak confirm"

"ok, takpe skejap lagi kita scan. PCO ni common, and all women who have PCO can get pregnant. after treatment, there's no problem of getting pregnant. - if u dont have other problems la. Why or How u get PCO is UNKNOWN. but there are ways to treat PCO. kita boleh buat blood test dulu utk tgk testosterone level u mcm mana. sbb its the hormon lelaki yg lebih ade dlm badan u. the symptoms are including byk jerawat, facial hair, ...tapi u takde ni. bulu kaki ada?"

haish doctor ni =))

"tak. bulu roma biase ade lah!"

"tu lah, i tgk berat badan u pon biasa je. tapi these are all common symtoms. tak semestinye u mesti ada symptom ni utk ada PCO. kdg2 org yg kurus pon bole kena."

"doc, saya dah gemok lah."

"gemok apa mcm ni?"

"dulu i underweight tau doc, berat i 34-36kg je..skang lepas ambik ubat tu ubat ni naik pulak badan"

"haa bagos la..kalau mcm ni dah balance..tapi u kena maintain la..kalau overweight lagi susah nnt"

"ok, so how to cure PCOS?"

"ok kalau u gemok slalunya kita akan suroh u turonkan berat badan dulu which is metformin..tp sbb u tak, so first kita bagi u diane35 balik je la, but atleast take it for a couple of months. 2 bulan atleast. then teros ambik clomid but maybe kite up dose a bit drp last time u ambik. then, quickly get pregnant! settle :)"

KALAU BOLEH!!!

"other ways are we have to do minor surgery la sket, kita buat laparoscopy dulu, then ovarian drilling (NGERINYA DENGAR!). kita drill ovari u guna laser so that the dead follicles can be released. tapi, ur case tak terok sgt sebab u get your period atleast 4-6  times a year. kalau u tak period setahon baru kita buat drilling ni. ur case kena ambik diane je dulu, baru clomid"

"kenape diane ye?"

"sebab diane mengurangkan hormon androgen & testosterone level u, and add up the estrogen in your body, so with balance hormones, u can get pregnant"

oo sbb tu la kdg2 kalau org nak ilangkan jerawat or nak bg kulit cantik doc bagi diane ni.

"ok jom kita scan u nak tgk betol tak u ada PCOS"

aku pon baring and ultrasound. teros doc tu tuju kat tempat ovari aku.

"THERE!"

dah same dgn gambar ultrasound PCOS yg aku penah paste before ni. aku rase muke aku teros pucat sbb doc teros tegor "u jgn laaa takott.dont worry, ramai org kena n can get pregnant"

aku ngeri tgk bulat2 itam kecik keliling ovary aku tu sbenanye. woh so tu la benda yg berbulan2 tidak release. hampeh. aku rase aku ni baru2 je kene menda ni sbb mase 1st time aku jumpe dr ummul tu, dia scan gak. tapi dia ckp No ovum is present. kosong. bak kate zack, kilang tidak bekerja. abeh aku ni kilang buat keja tapi product tak kuar. heheh. boleh camtu?

then dr sudha check ovari blah kanan plak. same. ade bulat2 kecik2 berantai. :( *(@^*(!@#&*(! lagi skali doc tegor aku "u nih jgn la takot sgt, dont worryy..kalau stress nnt lagi terok"

hehe...pastu doc check plak rahim aku

"there, your uterus is so perfectly fine. no blood clots, no abnormal stuffs. position pon OK"

(thanks to makcik yg urut aku before ni.)

dr sudha tanye lagi

"mase u ambik clomid tu, ade dr karamjeet bagi u injection utk trigger the release of ovum tak?"

"takde pon?"

"laa..yeke..sepatotnye kena..sbb kdg2 u need help utk bagi telor u release..hm takpelah, lepas ni kite start balik, then make sure u ask for the injection"

hoho, aku lak kene ASK for the injection..padanla akak2 ofis aku pelik kenape aku tak kene injection tu. sbb ade akak2 kat sini yg penah ambik clomid semua then doc bagi injection utk pecahkan telor.

mungkin sbb bahaye kot kalau bg injection tu? tah ni aku dok search ni, katenye mcm bahaye sket. ade risk la.

astu doc ni bagi lagi explaination yg sgt detail kat aku. dia ckp PCOS ni mmg la tak terok tapi kalau tak buat treatment, lame2 dia boleh jadi CYST. lepastu kalau dah ade CYST kang kene endo plak.

"u dont have endo. dont worry"

peh, tarik napas lega lah aku. kalau ade endo, nak kene operate bebagai plak lagi.

aku suke dr sudha ni. lenkali jumpe die jek lg bagos. maybe sbb die kurang popular so dia lebih byk bg info drp doc2 lain yg semue org nak sgt jumpe tapi bg explaination yg general gile astu skejap. maybe sbb ramai sgt org. dia pon takbyk mase kot.

aku cepat2 la google name dr sudha ni. oh mmg betol she's one of the best, compared to dr yg lain2 tu. ade plak satu blog ni penoh dgn komen2 org psl klinik tu klinik ni doc tu doc ni..plg terok klinik UMRA la diorg kate. alhamdulillah aku xpenah kene terok lg drp diorg. check out this

"...To Klinik UMRA pls take this into consideration, improve your service, monitor your staff and sack all inefficient staff..improve your system, take really good care of your trainee as they are still learning at your place and they have huge potential to be a helpful nurse in future..Dr. Sudha, is one of the best doctor, but she wont be all the time there. To all friends who follow this forum, please3x careful with Klinik UMRA. do your best of not experience the same things as i had this morning."

aku dpt drp link nih http://www.shoppingnsales.com/moms/2008/05/best-cheapest-hospital/comment-page-5/

mmg bagos betol. ramai org bercerita experience diorg psl doc2 yg diorg suka or taksuka.

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lepas abis consultation dgn Dr Sudha, aku ambik blk ubat diane35 and teros start mlm tu jugak. dr sudha soh plan btol2, its ok kalau aku teros nak ambik clomid lepas 1 cycle of diane, tapi its better we try off for 2 cycles, just utk stabilkan hormon. astu dia ckp nnt dtg balik utk ambik 2nd cycle or diane after 21days.

semua skali RM77 je.

so, lps entry ni, mmg penoh la info psl PCOS saje. heheh.

Happy :)

i should be happy.

for having

• a husband


• a father


• a stepmother


• a brother


• a stepbrother


• a mother and father in law


• in law siblings


• childhood friends


• office friends


• close cousins


• a best friend


• a job


• a house


• a car

i should be happy.

Endometriosis, the heck is.

Penyakit Endometriosis

Penyakit endometriosis merupakan satu jenis penyakit yang agak luar biasa.    Mungkin ramai yang tidak mengetahui tentang penyakit ini sedangkan sekarang makin ramai wanita yang menghidapinya.    Di antara masalah yang ditumbulkan oleh penyakit ini ialah senggugut dan kesakitan , kemandulan dan keguguran yang mungkin berulang-kali.    Ia juga boleh menyebabkan berbagai jenis masalah seperti pendarahan, gangguan kencing, kesakitan dan lain-lain.

Apakah sebenarnya penyakit Endometriosis?

Penyakit endometriosis ini adalah satu keadaan luar biasa di mana tisu dari selaput dalam rahim yang digelar endometrium telah tumbuh di luar rahim.    Selaput ini biasanya luruh bersama-sama darah haid.   Oleh itu campuran darah dari rahim dengan tisyu yang telah berkecai daripada lapisan endometrium serta kuman-kuman bakteria, menjadikan apa yang digelar ‘darah kotor’ atau darah haid.



‘Chocolate cyst’ – Endometriosis dalam ovary.

Bagaimana selaput endometrium ini boleh tumbuh di luar rahim?

Biasanya tempat-tempat di luar rahim di mana tisu endometrium ini tumbuh ialah pada kilang telur (ovari), belakang rahim (utero sacral ligament),  saluran fallopian, pundi kencing, kadang-kala di tempat-tempat yang aneh seperti parut bekas pembedahan untuk melahirkan anak ataupun pembedahan untuk tujuan lain.  Endometrium ini juga boleh tumbuh pada dinding/otot rahim menyebabkan penyakit yang digelar Adenomyosis.

Bagaimana tisyu endometrium ini boleh tumbuh pada tempat-tempat yang luar biasa, tidaklah diketahui dengan tepat.  Terdapat beberapa teori yang cuba menjelaskan berlakunya keadaan seperti ini.    Di antaranya ialah ada kemungkinan darah kotor melimpah atau tumpah ke belakang rahim melalui saluran fallopian.   Mungkin ini disebabkan oleh rahim yang kedudukannya luar biasa iaitu jatuh ke belakang ke arah tulang tongking (retroverted uterus).    Keadaan rahim begini sering dikaitkan dengan penyakit endometriosis sedangkan rahim yang menghadap ke hadapan (anteverted) jarang penyakit endometriosis.

Ada juga yang menyatakan bahawa tisu endometrium ini di bawa ke tempat lain melalui saluran darah atau saluran kelenjar.    Tetapi hakikat sebenarnya kita tidak tahu bagaimana ianya berlaku.    Ada juga yang mengaitkan bahawa endometriosis ini sering berlaku dikalangan wanita-wanita yang sering tertekan jiwa mereka (stress),  yang mudah menggelabah dan di kalangan mereka yang sangat mementingkan kerjaya dan mereka yang tinggi I.Q.nya.

Ada juga yang mengatakan bahawa system ketahanan pada wanita tersebut telah lemah dan lentur, oleh itu tisu- tisu yang patut keluar dari tubuhnya kini menyerang balik tubuh badannya sendiri.   Apa yang terjadi ialah apabila tisu endometrium ini melekat pada tempat tempat tertentu, ia mulai tumbuh. Lapisan endometrium menjadi tebal akibat daripada rangsangan hormon wanita dalam pusingan haid dan apabila haid berlaku lapisan endometrium tersebut juga akan mengeluarkan darah.

Jika keadaan begini berlaku dalam telur (ovari) lama kelamaan darah akan berkumpul serta menyebabkan apa yang digelar ovarian cysts atau chocolate cysts kerana mengandungi darah kotor yang berbentuk seperti pasta coklat. .<----OH MY GOD!

im going to the doctor TODAY TODAY AND TODAY!

jom baca http://home.hamidarshat.com/SakitPuan.htm byk info penting. nnt ada masa aku paste benda yg patot kite tau walaupon korang dah pernah mengandung dan beranak. jgn lepas ni kate takpenah dgr plak. jgn jadi ignorant.

Mimpi

Semalam before aku terjaga pukol 4pagi nak tgk uruguay vs holland (YAY HOLLAND MENANG!!!!!!!), aku mimpi yg sgt pelik. tapi aku happy sbb dapat mimpi ni. kdg2 mimpi tu terbalik, kdg2 petunjuk drp Allah. kdg2 mainan syaitan. tapi ape jua sekalipon aku tetap happy.

aku mimpi aku gi check pregnancy test kat klinik dgn arwah mak aku. tattau kenape kalini mak aku ade dgn aku..aku penah je mimpi check pregnancy test ni (agaknye sbb terlalu memikir sgt) tapi kalini mak aku ada. lepas aku urine tu tah kenape mak aku lak mcm tunjok kat aku beberape test sticks tuh, agaknye dlm mimpi aku tu aku wat byk sgt test kot. yg kelaka nye mule2 buat test, positive samar2, lepastu dok takpuas ati, test lagi (boh lagi satu stick dlm urine container tu) ade lagi 3 4 test stick lagi. semue stick tu berakhir dgn positive yg sgt terang benderang!! astu aku susun2 lak 3 4 sticks tu tadi, mule2 samar2, astu clear tapi samar sket, last skali terang gila.

wah. indah betol mimpi mcm tu. mak aku pon siap gembira gila sbb nak dpt cucu.

Celine Dion Makes My Day

Semalam lunch hour aku balik umah sbb tibe2 takde mood. Aku tibe2 mcm emo nak mampos. taktau ape sebab. aku nak period ke?

Kat umah aku tgk la tv, konon baru psg astro (bola punye pasal) aku terbukak channel yg ade Oprah tu. die jempot Celine Dion, aku mule nak alih channel lain dah ingat diorg bincang topik psl album dia ke pegi tour kat memane ke..rupenye topik diorg discuss psl Celine Dion punye recent miscarriage. !

Ayat2 die membuatkan aku sgt bersemangat dan rase lega. Aku kene positive jugak mcm dia ni.



Celine Dion is openly discussing her recent miscarriage for the first time, telling OprahWinfrey during a taping of her show that while the incident was sad, she and her husband Rene are hoping the fifth time is the charm. "We tried four times to have a child. We're still trying. We're on the fifth try. And I tell you, if five is my lucky number, this fifth try has got to come in," Dion said.

Dion announced she was pregnant in August of 2009. As the details of the pregnancy came out, we learned that Dion was impregnated using an embryo she had frozen eight years before, in 2001, when she and husband Rene were trying to have a child. They eventually were successful, and gave birth to son Rene-Charles.

Sadly, though, Dion miscarried her most recent pregnancy.

"It's life. You know? A lot of people go through this, but it's not being told because it's not in newspaper. But with us, as you know, it's like, sometimes news are like mercury," she told Winfrey.

Dion says she didn't come out right away with the miscarriage news because the initial reports of her pregnancy were still fresh, and she didn't want to make such an announcement so fast.

"They said that I was pregnant, and a couple of days after, we were not pregnant again. We didn't want to feel like we were playing yo-yo. 'I'm pregnant. I'm not pregnant. I'm pregnant. I'm not pregnant.' So we didn't want to do this thing. But we did have a miscarriage," she said.

Despite the miscarriage, Dion says that she and her husband are "still trying" for another baby. And while she would be thrilled to get pregnant again and have it be successful, Dion says she's happy and blessed no matter what.

"I will be the happiest one to tell you when I'm pregnant. And if not, I'm the luckiest artist, especially wife and mother of a wonderful son. So I'm glad," she said.

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Okay, so she already had a son, only miscarried when she wanted to have another child. gile boleh frozen2 sampai 8tahon lak embrio yg first tuh. aku sanggop cari kat website memane yg ade review psl oprah ngan celine dion punye show smlm. ade pon. Ayat paling best:

The 41-year-old Power of Love singer said she and husband of 15 years, René Angélil, 68, try not to let fertility issues affect their relationship.

"I don't think a child or a pregnancy should make anything stronger or weaker. A child is not there to fix a marriage, to bring happiness. Let's not put pressure on children."

thank you, celine.

Oh then aku jumpe website lain, celine dion baru pregnant balik last may, with TWINS. dah 6 kali try IVF. (dia artist byk duit dohh...) akhirnya berjaya, at the age of 42. wow.

Enjoy Life While You Can!

Ape kate kite enjoy life jek dan lupekan psl aku takde anak lagi. ops sory, psl aku belom MENGANDUNG lagi. kite mesti enjoy puas2. ape yg boleh buat utk enjoy?

1. jamming selalu (dan menghabiskan duit?)

2. recording lagi skali. buat EP pulak (dan menghabiskan duit)

3. pergi berjalan2 dan melancong! (dan menghabiskan duit jugak)

4. buat package baru kat wedding photography aku. (ini boleh kumpul duit)...tapi (stress).

5. berniaga

6. beli akuarium dan bela ikan (duit lagi)

7. .....tattau. cadangkan.

Haritu aku tanye laki aku, sbb aku nak tau ape sbenanye die rase psl ni. psl kitorg takde anak lagi. mule2 die ckp Takpe takkesah takpe takkesah...akhirnya die ngaku mmg dia rase rumah kitorg sunyi dan bosan. CUKOP camtu saje aku dah rase nak terjun tingkat 3. waaaaaaaaaaa.

sape soh aku tanye?

aku teringat citer Sumpah Bunian kat tv3, nora danish tu jadi bunian, die kawin dgn org biase and takbole mengandong sbb 'kromosom' die taksame dgn manusia biasa. akhirnya die izinkan laki tu kawin lain sbb nak bagi laki tu ada zuriat. laki aku kdg2 takperasan kalau aku tgk citer tu aku asik bergenang air mate sbb aku takot suatu hari nanti kalau aku takbole jugak bagi laki aku anak aku akan come out dgn decision mcm tu. tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

:( sedihnya...isk. takpe la. payung emas menunggu aku weh. tapi takkkkkkkkkk aku taknak hipokrit aku taknak sbenanye benda tu berlakuuu!

QURAN MENJAWAB
‘Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.’
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

oh no.oh no oh no oh no!

adui...mintak jaoh la kalau benda ni akan terjadi :(

kdg2 aku bace2 forum kan, ade la minah2 yg mcm sedih laki diorg ni tak being supportive, instead lagi tambah depress diorg lagi. bile gitau je diorg period, laki2 diorg ni teros mcm bengang atau sedih sgt sbb tak menjadi baby yg diorg buat arituh.

LET ME TELL YOU.

bersyukorlah korang PERIOD sbb korang tau yg lagi 14hari korang leh TRY lagi.

aku? bile boleh try? hari2? hari2 main sampai renggang tapak kaki? astu keje dok beli je hpt dan kumpul negative pregnancy test byk2 mcm org kumpul setem?!

hadoi..pelik la wanita2 ni. (aku pon mungkin diantara org yg pelik gak) tapi mereka itu lebih pelik. mungkin sbb taksabar sgt. ape ingat harini main dah lekat? bile period je sedih bukanmain. ngok! nextmonth nye cycle try la lagi! sbb tu la wujudnya bende fertility calculator bagai ni. takreti gune teknologi ke? hoh! aku ni yg nak gune sgt tapi takboleh guna sbb tak period.! X-(

aku dulu awal2 kawin mase period ok-ok lagi, bile period je aku sengeh kat laki aku dan kate "syg, period la. cube next time k" dia pon gelak and ckp "Ok cube lagi." its something to be laughed together about je kot. (tapi mungkin kalau dah bertahon2 pon tak lekat maybe sedih la jugak tapi yg komplen tu org2 yg baru2 je kawin bile period dok sedih!)

korang tau tak ape doctor akan tanye FIRST skali utk nak kompem korang boleh mengandung secare naturally ke tak. soalan pertame die ialah PERIOD AWAK NORMAL?

aku sgt berharap aku leh jawap YA utk soalan tu tapi takkan pernah pon. jadi kalau korang tiap2 bulan period, mungkin lagging 2 3 hari atau seminggu dua, maksodnya insyallah korang mmg sng pregnant. kalau trying for 1 year pon masih tak pregnant (with normal cycle) baru la korang leh check kot2 korang ade cyst ke, tube sumbat ke, rahim kebelakang ke, (mase ni lah berURUT tu mungkin BERKESAN). atau mengambil ape2 supplement yg boleh membantu utk increase lagi chances korang. yg common la seperti folic acid, EPO, calcium, jamu2 yg boleh trigger kesuburan. takpayah buat mcm aku dok kaji sana kaji sini sgt.

aku kdg2 tu nak continue makan folic acid segale ni mcm dah jadi tawar ati. tapi aku makan jugak. redho. aku rase mcm takde motif aku dok cukopkan folic acid sedangkan hormon2 yg diperlukan utk mengandung tu yg sbenanye takcukop. calcium aku tiptop. aku dah wat check aritu Anlene dtg sirim, bagi semue org check calcium for free. yg terbaik +2 kalau yg worst -2. aku nye 1.8! so maksodnye aku nye kandungan calcium mmg cukop. folic acid utk pembahagian sel2 semua. mesti kene ambik jugak. walaupon sedikit tawar ati. ambik ambik ambik! adoi..aku kene dptkan drugs balik lah rasenye. aku dah givap dgn slow slow herbs ni. aku ni skejap nak ambik drugs skejap taknak ambik camne nih! haish!

xpe2, aku tau. aku kene gi jumpe dr rafiy balik utk gitau dia yg aku tidak berjaya. sbb aritu aku just gitau dr ummul je (yg mcm nak taknak je consult) aku better gitau dr rafiy. sbb die yg cadang plan (yg takmenjadi) aritu. aku rase die silap kot pegi bagi aku diane35 lepastu teros ambik clomid bile dah period dgn diane tu. ye lah kan, sbb, chemical yg aku ambik tu baru je nak kuar, astu gi ambik satu lagi jenis chemical utk trigger benda lain lak. utk make other things COUNTER balik. buleh ke? ceh aku bukannye tau mcm la aku doctor. tapi aku terfikir benda ni sbb, dr ummul takkasi aku ambik clomid balik lepas dia ckp aku miscarriage. die ckp tunggu darah habis keluar, then tunggu NEXT period, lepas NEXT period lagi baru leh ambik balik clomid. sbb period yg 1 cycle before tu adalah chemical. so tak elok katenye. abeh dr rafi selambe jek gi bagi aku diane disertai dgn clomid. camnE? sedangkan clomid & VITEX herb pon takleh ambik skali sbb die counter balik. camne aa?! isk nak je aku belaja betol2 psl gynecology ni.

aku baru teringat dr rafi awal2 dulu plan lain. die ckp die nak bagi aku period normally for 2 cycle, end of april baru die bagi aku clomid. mase aku gi jumpe die 1st time tu bulan feb. next time aku jumpe utk submit sperm sample, tibe2 die kate

"takpe2, takpayah tunggu lagi. u ni senang je ni. kite bagi u diane utk force period. bile period je u teros dtg ambik clomid. insyallah senang je u pregnant"

wah2 doctor ni. penat aku bagi dia history aku segale bagai die leh buat statement camtu lak. takpe la atleast mase tu aku leh senyum lagi sbb die seperti memberi sedikit harapan kat aku n along.

dan harapan itu menjadi skejap bile mane aku chek hpt aku positif lepas 4minggu. skejap je laaa huhu. terima kasih encik harapan kerana muncol skejap. tapi lepastu kau hilang ye? takpe aku akan cari ko balik encik harapan. sampai ke lobang cacing!

gagaga

Fertility Calendar

Dah lame tak layan benda ni. sebab benda ni dgn aku tidak ngam lansong. ye lah, aku nak predict mcm mana kalau period pon tak dtg. aku nak kire mcm mana.

ni sebab aritu aku bleed sket, (sangat sikit) so aku buat la yg baru.  benda ini boleh didapati di babymed.com.

kalau korang nye period oK, boleh guna benda ni. kalau tak ok, boleh guna once period dtg. tapi tak semestinye the next cycle tu die dtg ikot kiraan korang. boleh jadi dia terawal, atau terlambat 2 3 bulan.

Will You be a Good Mother? - www.babycenter.com

I should've known this first before considering to get pregnant or watever.
suka yg no 2 tu. itu mmg aku. :P

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1.What is the so-called "maternal instinct"?

According to Elyse Rubenstein, a Philadelphia psychiatrist who counsels new mothers, the term refers to "an inborn tendency to want to protect and nurture one's offspring." Almost all mothers (human and animal alike) eventually come to feel this way after they have a child.

2.I was never a "baby person" before. Does that mean I'll be a bad mother?

No, how you feel about babies before you have one isn't an accurate predictor of the kind of mother you'll become. "You don't have to be the type who fawns over babies," says Rubenstein. Once you give birth, it's a whole new ballgame, andfeelings you never expected to have will surface as part of the process of becoming a parent.

Before San Jose resident Heidi Oliveri had her son, Brandon, she was a typical 22-year-old — fun-loving, outgoing, career-minded, and definitely not the kind of person you'd describe as maternal. "I was not a baby person," she says. "I never pictured myself having three kids, which I now do." But she's completely comfortable in her role as a mother. "Until you have your own, you really don't know what you'll be like," she says. "But once you have a baby, the maternal instinct just kicks in."

3.What if I don't feel particularly maternal?

The fact that you're worried about being "maternal" or a good mother in the first place shows that you're concerned about your baby. And that's a great start. Instead of worrying about whether you fulfill a requirement for parenthood that experts themselves don't even agree on, focus your energies on getting to know your baby. "A large number of new mothers fear, in some way, that they don't quitemake the grade because parenting doesn't come as naturally as they expected it would," says Rubenstein. But what counts just as much as those fuzzy feelings you're supposed to have for your baby is a combination of experience and education. The older your baby gets, and the more you get to know him, the more confident a parent you become. Heidi Oliveri agrees. The more she got to know Brandon, the more comfortable she felt about being a mother, a skill she thought she'd never master. "Like any relationship, this one takes time to grow," she says.

Unless you feel an overwhelming, unrelenting resentment toward your baby, you'll soon grow into your new role as a mother and do the best you can (which is what most new parents do). If you're continually feeling sad or angry, or if you ever feel you might hurt your baby, seek help immediately. Your doctor or midwife or your baby's pediatrician can refer you to a counselor trained to help new moms.

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tapi aku tak risau. sebab, kucing yang binatang tu pon bile melahirkan anak die tau nak kene susukan anak nak kene mandikan anak nak kene sayang anak..takkan binatang yg takde akal pon tau tapi kita yg manusia serba sempurna ni semua takreti.

sbenanyer..dlm 2 3 hari ni aku baru terfikir sendri..yg aku tak layak sbenanye nak mintak anak drp Allah. aku taklayak nak mintak mcm2 sebab aku patot bersyukor dgn ape yg aku ada skang ni. yg ade skang ni pon tak terjage dgn betol. suami, rumah, kete, bapak, adek, maktiri, mak kandung yg dah takde,  mak & bapak mertua. biar lah orglain tu ade anak, dah mmg die layak jadi mak. aku rase aku belom layak. kalau dah bertahon2 aku masih takdpt anak, maksodnye mmg Allah tau aku taklayak ade anak. tah2 aku awal2 je suke dpt anak..lepastu aku dah saket ati kalau die asik menangis ke astu mungkin lepas ade anak, kalau aku sangke relationship aku and laki aku bertambah ceria, bertukar menjadi lagi haru biru ke, asik dok bertekak psl anak ke, asik ungkit mengungkit ke, asik blame each other if something goes wrong kat anak ke. dah la aku kemas rumah pon malas. nak kemas anak?

aku pikir sejuta kali kalini, adekah aku LAYAK nak mintak anak drp Allah. hari2 kalau solat aku mesti nak bace doa utk dpt anak spt kat entry lepas2 yg aku dah post ni. tibe2 skang aku tak bace dah. sbb aku rase malu nak mintak anak. malu nak mintak benda yg sbenanye aku sendri tattau aku leh pikul ke tak. aku sendri pon byk buat dose. aku kene muhasabah diri dulu sebelom mengade2 nak anak.

ataupon aku patot membela something utk membiasekan diri to 'take care' of something. bukan bela toyol laaa. mungkin aku boleh stat bela ikan? ataupon tanam pokok? aku nak tanam pokok ape kalau dah dok tingkat 3 nih!

tapi sambil2 tu aku usaha je sendri. mungkin sambil2 usaha tu, akhirnya aku realise sendri wat it takes to be a mother. Ataupon Allah nak bagi anak kat aku lambat sket sbb Dia nak soh aku belajar utk appreciate anak tu sbb aku tunggu punye la lame. kalau sng sgt nak dapat, mungkin aku tidak brape appreciate. (kalau AKU, bukan korang)

kalau orglain yg senang dapat tu, maybe die mmg sgt layak dan mmg akan menjadi mak yg sgt berdedikasi. aku ni mungkin lembab. kalau aku baru kawin dulu teros dpt anak mesti aku cam tahape2. dah la baru2 je nak bercinta lepas kawin.

Allah tu Maha Adil. aku tau. sbb tu dia bagi stengah org tu cepat, stengah org tu lambat, ade setengah org tu takde lansong anak. like hana said, auntie & uncle dia yg seorang muslim yg sgt baik, alim, tapi takde anak. mungkin sbb Allah nak bagi lagi byk pahala kat org2 yg mcm ni sbb dia bersabar dan teros usaha tanpa jemu, bile byk bersabar lagi byk kite beramal. tu semua sbb Allah sgt sayang dkt org2 yg mcm ni dan Allah tak semesti bagi ANAK utk tunjukkan yg Dia sayang kat kita. kdg2 aku penah pikir agaknye aku ni sewel byk tinggal smbayang semua, sbb tu takdpt anak. ataupon dulu aku slalu gado dgn mak aku. mak aku nak lahirkan aku pon tunggu 4 tahon. mungkin Allah nak Ajar aku ini rase dia susah nak dpt anak. bile dah beso aku jd anak yg kurang baik. :-| jadi skang aku rasekan.

tapi kdg2 aku tengok pulak couple2 lain yg lagi kelamkabot drp aku. yg maknye smoke, lepas kawin pon gi clubbing lagi, sorry to say, tapi mmg ada. aku shoot gamba kawin. aku tau la. ade client2 aku nye life background yg agak..mcm huha2 lagi terok la drp yg aku penah imagine. tapi kawin2 je dpt anak berderet. tu semua rezki masing2. maybe die huha2 tapi tuhan bagi die anak cepat supaye die berubah?

aku tau Allah akan bagi aku anak. aku cume perlu cari diri aku sendri.