Assalamualaikum 2019

Hye TTCians if there's anyone still here can you drop a comment?

Taktahu kenapa I suddenly missed my TTC Blog, FindingTwoLines :)
Password pun lupa haritu, nasib baik now dah dapat balik. Bila baca balik my journey dulu2 memang sebak-happy-kelakar-semua ada. Nasib baik rajin ber-blog dulu. Ada la gak tempat nak men-throbek :P

My TTC Baby is now a 6year old kiddo -(soon to be 6yo) Alhamdulillah, he grew up very healthy, rarely gets sick, so smart, funny and very matured.

How time flies kan?

Lots have changed, Major ones actually. Especially that I was separated and divorced with Fahim's father. (in 2017)
Takpayah cerita panjang jodoh sampai situ aje. So the struggle and hardship I was facing, the so-called kekuatan that I gained during TTC - was what I actually need during the crisis, during the separation, during the depressed moment. The pindah-randah process. The shut-down of my company (because I was so broke and needed to downsize, tumpang rumah kawan, for months until I found my (our) new home. Yeah lots of shits happen. But without Fahim, I probably dont have the strength to move forward. :')

I shut down this blog because I was on designing business from 2015 - and when my client googled my name they found this blog ;D Tak kisah pun cuma masalahnye malu la ada cerita pasal sperm count lah make love lah hapelah. Macam tak appropriate lansung untuk dibuat tayangan umum dah blog ni kalau berbisnes - silap jugak pegi guna nama same utk bisnes ahhaha..

So I have to temporary shut down this blog (pastu terus lupa) and I know some of my readers tried to reach me thru FB/Email ; nak tanya my pendapat pasal your TTC Journey. I am so sorry because during that time - was the time I was on major crisis and memang tak berminat lansung nak discuss about TTC anymore. Memang ada few friends suruh biar aje blog ni sebab ramai yang nak cari info utk TTC...I know that tapi mase tu memang rasa taknak publish because my business tgh active and I dont want my private life (nak-nak lagi citer pasal TTC ni bukan semua org faham) so utk jaga nama company I unpublished this blog., tambah pulak dengan masalah masa tu. I even quit TTCGM sebab rasanya dah taknak TTC and cukuplah Fahim seorang.

Tapi Allah tu Maha Bijaksana dan Dialah merancang dan menentukan segalanya. I got married again (last April 2018) and to be frank yeah we immediately want our own baby (he gets along so well with Fahim because he is always Fahim's fav uncle since he was a baby, and alhamdulillah he is really2 a good father to Fahim) tapi Fahim asik mintak adik sebab tak sabar2 nak jadi abang so cam ughhhhhhh why laaaaaaa u now pandai mintak adikkkk Fahim oiiii ibu nak dapat kau pun susah oiii :))
Mase aku TTC dah la struggle nak menjawap soalan Bila nak ada anak.
Sekali Fahim skang boleh tanya aku
"Ibu, bila Fahim nak ada adik?"
:((

So that's why, I came back here. To refresh back wth is TTC, and wth I did last time, sebab aku dah lupaaaa semua research aku sendirikkk hahahhhhh. OMG and I just turned 35 so - nak tunggu mende lagi kau bukan 20an lagi jay. :P

I discovered a lot of us dah beralih ke IG ye. Mind dropping your TTC ig username if you have one?
And so sorry again for those yang pernah email/pm me if I didn't reply a few years ago. :( You have no idea what I went thru. But now I am so much better, Alhamdulillah.

I am back to TTC #2
(well TTC#1 with my new husband) :)

My New Family :)

TTC Breakthrough Review!

Salam semua
So So sososososoosoosoosososooooooooooooo sorryyyyy lambat review pasal Breakthrough haritu..
I've resign from my previous company that Ive been working for 6years, then concentrated on my design business..job sangat banyak alhamdulillah..tak terkejar..nak update pasal program haritu pun taksempat aje. Harini i managed to spare a little bit time to update..

Our first breakthrough was awesome! Ada 12 participant yang datang, (ada yang bayar tapi tak dtg..maybe ada hal emergency kot) but that's what i targeted,..memang taknak ramai2 sebab nanti takboleh focus..pasal ni bukan serious talk pun..just mcm sembang2 santai pasal TTC, sessi luahan masing2, and we learned on how to control our emotions, macam mana nak jawap dengan soalan orang ramai..macam mana nak handle difficult situation when it comes to "zuriat"..
Thank u sangat pada yang support, i really2 wanted to share how i change my negative mindset to positive mindset during ttc..and alhamdulillah berjaya conceive..maybe ada yang takcukup input masa tu sebab Reen Zuhdi takdapat datang pasal mak dia kena masuk ICU..
But we will try to make 2nd session, Reen memang ada lebih banyak nak share about Positive Mindset during TTC..anyway., yang dah menjayakan program haritu pun alhamdulillah.. tq so much dear participants..
U ladies are IRON LADIES semuanya..ada yang dugaan lebih hebat dari aku..ada jugak certain penyakit yg pertama kali aku dengar during program tu..

From my view..kebanyakkannya menghadapi masalah nak mengadap masyarakat sekeliling yang tak faham perasaan kita. Akibatnye, kite selalu tertekan, stress, dan ape je yang kite buat kite fokus kat TTC je. macam aku dulu lah..
Ada yang 2nd marriage, ada yang takde prob ttc tapi husband yang prob..yeah..dugaan TTCians semua berbeza2 dan unik..
Percayalah kekuatan yang Allah nak kita bina ni memang sangat berguna utk masa hadapan. Ianya bukan untuk sekarang, tapi di masa akan datang yang kita taktahu apa lagi dugaan Allah nak sediakan utk kita.

A lot of things happened to me lately. And when i pandang balik zaman TTC..aku realize yang dugaan tu bukannya for nothing. Bukan semata2 dah dapat anak, its done. NOPE..takde lansung.
Patutlah, ada yang kena TTC dulu baru dapat anak. Sebab dugaan SELEPAS dapat anak tu, mgkin yang bunting pelamin tu semua takboleh handle.
Serious ni.
Hehe..nanti  next session, we all akan panggil balik participants yang datang 1st Breakthrough k.
Nanti kita sambung lagi apa2 yang tertinggal.

I've shared some tips on how to overcome this..and some zikir&doa tips..harap ianya bermanfaat utk semua..

NI ade sikit gambar2 during our program :)

During ice breaking

During Lunch

Hmm NASI ARAB uollss..sedap kan??

TQ semua!!

Insyallah, dalam tahun ni akan ada lagi Breakthrough Session ni.. Maaf jika my 1st program ni agak tak memuaskan...but i really hope i already helped to relieve some of your TTC dilemma.. Kita akan umumkan bila next program yehh..

Saya doakan semua TTCians murah rezeki, semoga semuanya pregnant tahun ini Insyallah :)

TTC Breakthrough Review Coming UP

sorry people im still getting emails yg mengatakan nak join TTC Breakthrough Program.
it was actually over, it was 28 feb lepas. and thank u for those yg dah datang haritu!
i dont know when will i do it again sebab sangat busy sekarang. ni taip pun laju2. insy
will update the pictures and the review of the program yeah..sorry2 banyak2 semua. really2 kesempitan masa skang :(