i finally have a couple of EGGS!

yay!

semalam raya ke 4, and cycle day 14, where dr ummul kate patot dtg cd12 t api klinik tutop sbb raya and aku pon ada kat johor. mule2 aku dah taknak pegi klinik smlm, sbb aku bengang dr ummul kate kenape aku tak kire betol2 blablablbla and die leh kate kalau dah tau cd12 tu aku takde kat sini, jgn ambik dulu femara tu. wah, die nak soh aku tunggu lagi la? org lagi nak cpt die nak soh tunggu2 lak.

smlm lepas balik opis (2 org jek ade kat opis smlm. gile sangap) aku teros gi klinik. wah dah renovate byk and reception pon dah move ke tempat baru. dah besar and cantik gak la. takde patient pon smlm, aku jek dtg dgn laki aku. then aku tanye dr ape yg ade? nurse tu ckp "Dr Sudha"

yes!

astu bile jumpe je doctor, dia yg tersengeh2 sbb agaknye die pon dah kenal dah dgn aku sbb dah byk kali aku dgn dia. aku ckp la "dr, haritu i ada jumpe dr ummul die ckp sepatotnye hari ke 12 raya ke2..then die ckp hari ke 14 dah takbole tapi i nak dtg gak"

"actually can laa..hari ke 13 14 sempat lagi. ur follicle is still maturing"

ha kan!

astu die tanye camne dgn Diane selame 2 cycles, aku gitau la bagos gak sbb dah kuar semue itam2 segala.

"what??? hitam2??"

"tak, darah mcm hitam2 laa"

"takde merah??"

"adaa, first day je"

"ohh u ni buat i takut je. then dah keluar la semue period kan"

"dah2.."

"see ur face pon mcm dah bersih..sometimes people use diane to get rid of the jerawat semua u know"

heheh. tapi muke bersih tak penting. aku tau aku nak telor aku besar.

then die suroh aku baring utk sonogram, utk check size follicle. aku tah brape kali berselawat mengharapkan size follicle aku cukop utk hCG trigger.

then bile tgk dkt skrin, aku cam tercengang sbb nampak follicle yg besar2 bentuknya. sbb before ni scan dgn dr sudha, last die gitau aku yg aku PCOS, follicle semue kecik2 and berantai2, which is not good at all. mase dulu ambik clomid pon, scan hari ke 12 nampak kecik2 mcm tu gak. tibe2 kali ni besar and ade 2 ketol je each ovary. doctor teros measure size satu follicle sbelah kanan aku. 14mm.

aku teros sedeh :( dr sudha ckp "alamak..14mm je takcukop, nevermind we try this one"

dia teros measure size satu ketol telor yg lagi satu. 13mm

:(

then aku berdoa lagi hopefully sbelah kiri aku ade la atleast 1 pon yg over 18mm. beriye aku pejam mate taknak tgk tapi terbukak gak mate sbb doctor ckp "haaaaaaaa ni ada"

die measure, 21mm. "yes, this is the size that we want!" kate dr sudha.

aku pon dah tersengeh2. then die kate ade satu lagi kat ovary kiri ni. die measure, 18.3mm.

pastu die measure lining uterus aku, aku tak ingat brapa mm ke ape, tapi die ckp "wow ur uterus thickness is also quite good"

aku tgk dlm skrin pon mcm agak lebar lining uterus aku. wah aku skang dah reti tgk ultrasound dah..dulu aku taknampak ape pon dlm skrin, tau black n white je. heheheh..skang leh nampak rahim aku yg mcm agak sempurna bagi aku, before ni dok senget sket. smlm tgk mcm normal je.

aku bersyukor sgt. atleast aku leh proceed to hcg trigger tu.

then doc teros perli aku "waaah so happy eh u nampak big eggs!"

"mesti la doctor haritu kan kecik2 jeee :D"

"ok now we can proceed to the injection la so that it can trigger ovulation after 36hours"

doc inject kat bontot. agak saket gak la tapi tak saket sgt pon. astu doc kate by 6am hari rabu 15 sept mesti mesti mesti have sex. aku tanye lagi

"kalau tak trigger, i tak ovulate ke?"

"u will, tapi when u are in fertility treatment, we make ur cycles regular so senang nnt nak time intercourse"

ohOOOOOooo

betol la tu, kalau tak trigger, aku pn tattau bile akan ovulate. so bile trigger, mmg kite tau die akan release lagi 36hours. heeeeeeee best betol tgk telor sendri besar! ini maybe berkat air buah zuriat, dan biodex, dan ubat doctor skali, dan doa yg aku amalkan hari2...alhamdulillah..

dr ckp, "we'll see by end of this month wether u will get ur period or not. kalau u period, we'll try again because kite dah tau u are responding very well on letrozole (femara), so we can try again. but if u dont get ur period, we'll take a pregnancy test and hopefully it will be positive lah :)"

"tapi kalau tak period and negative mcm haritu mcm mana?"

"then we will induce to make u period"

OK! lega aku. senang dgn dr sudha ni. aku tak saket ati nak ckp. sbb die ni jenis taknak tunggu and takperlu tunggu2 utk pregnant. die siap tanye aku

"why u get so excited in getting pregnant nii..tak saba yeaa :D dah brapa tahon kawin ni?"

"dkt 2 thn dah..tak la doctor, everybody is asking, bile nak ade baby bile nak ade baby.."

"yeaa that one so depressing kan. org tak tau kita ade masalah..must be tension punya when everyone is asking, nevermind we hope for the best kali ni!"

bagos btol doctor ni. aku teros suke gila doctor ni je kat klinik umra nih! buleh layan berborak lak lepastu aku siap citer nak gi australia by the time betol2 lepas 36hours, dia gelak je sbb aku sampai wat anak jaoh2.

tp sbenanye kalau dah ovulate before pegi sana, jadi kat sini je la :P

wish me luck ehh :D

i have egggssssssss!!!