Have Faith, but don't get too excited.

written on: 14/9/2012

I'm sorry you have to read the entry before this entry first: I have a Confession to Make.

I've already booked this blog-name earlier so that when pregnancy is achieved, will update my pregnancy story there. So, next journey will be written here: TwoLinesFound

Apa2 pun, nak cerita sket pasal pegi klinik untuk checkup semalam. yeah i went to Klinik Umra. klinik yang aku palang dulu2. sebabnya? aku menci call DEMC berpuluh kali tapi takde org jawap n bile ade org angkat, dia letak balik. takpaham apejadah tah! so kena cari klinik yang memang ada record aku, nak gi klinik Dr Delaila aku tengah sengkek skang ni. hehe, so proceed je Klinik Umra, knowing that they improved much and doctors pun dah bertambah. so aku tawakal je gi sana. apa2 pun harap aku takjumpe doc yg aku taksuke tu.

Well, done another hpt and the result came back faint positive. so doc tu takleh nak confirm sangat and she said patutlah scan tak nampak sebab nak kira from my LMP, baru 4weeks. sbenanye taksampai 4weeks pun. 3weeks +
So memang lah taknampak apebenda. The long story tentang apa yang doc tu cakap ada kat blog TwoLinesFound.

But aku rasa kalini ada rezeki, think positive.
Skang ni aku takrisau benda lain, i know that i achieved Finding the TwoLines, BUT we cant be happy just yet. Doc pun cakap, Jangan Happy lagi ok sebab kita tak confirm whether the sac will be at your womb ke atau dia lekat somewhere else (mintak simpang)
serious benda tu yang aku paling takot. Lots of people out there yang akan go crazy to see a positive result, tapi lupa banyak gila kemungkinan leh jadi.
Skang ni aku cuma banyak berdoa and berserah pada Allah. aku minta kalau betul dah rezeki aku, peliharalah janin ni sehingga ia lahir. Sihatkan lah fizikal & mentalnya. Tapi kalau bukan rezeki aku Kau turunkan lah ia dalam bentuk darah kotor.

So aku takleh melompat riang lagi, what i know is yes, i'm pregnant now but it is not viable yet. however, i thank you all for your Doa's, and should thank my friend and tuan haji mokhtar (last person i met) untuk cure my PCOS. and alhamdulillah ada hasil. cuma skang ni taktau lagi confirm ke tak. should wait for the beta hCg result this evening or tomorrow. If the beta hcg level is around 50-200mIU, then boleh tarik nafas lega tapi kena ambik darah lagi for next 48hours utk tengok how much dia double.
tapi kalau jumlah hcg aku more than 1000mIU, then diorang kena investigate dia melekat kat mana. oh nooo! wish me luck friends!!! but still i wont publish this entry just yet. tunggu dulu.
takot.

and this morning hpt result is better than yesterday.
AlhamdulillahirabbilAlaminnnn

12/9/2012 14dpo 

updated 18/9/2012 
bought a clearblue digital (saje gatal) and it says

Alhamdulillah :)

my beta hCg is doubling from 1010mIU to 2541mIU, alhamdulillah.
And yes, the doctor says, my pregnancy is insyallah healthy. please pray for me!!
and i will always pray for my TTC friends!!! Mudahan2 tak lama lagi turn uoll pulakkk ;) have faith!!
and never giveup! Miracle WILL and CAN happen :') Believe in your body, and believe in Allah Taala.
from now on please go to my new blog TWOLINESFOUND