My Past Entries U Might Missed

I know that i only have blog followers since last year and some of you might not read my previous2 post that COULD help if you are wondering a few questions.

So I'm here to share the links back untuk kesenangan korang. :)

Guidelines/Infos I've shared

1. How to make Clomid Work?  - just an info I found on the internet
2. New Bestfriend: BBT  - when I just bought my BBT
3. Pineapple - Nenas actually can aid implantation. (but not AFTER implantation)
4. Was it B12?  - Was it because of kekurangan B12 that we can't conceive?
5. Blood group can affect fertility - study reveals - just an info I found on the internet
6. FertiliTea - Fertilitea fron Fairhaven (WITH VITEX)
7. Mertfomin: a must! must! must! - metformin info for PCOS
8. SOY ISOFLAVONES - just an info I found on the internet
9. New info on Soy Isoflavones - just an info I found on the internet
10. HSG - hysterosalpinggogram - review after my hSG test
11.Food for Fertility - just an info I found on the internet
12.Gonal-F - when my gynae suggested to use this method
13.Interesting: LH & hCG - difference between LH hormons & HCG hormones
14. Rahim - a blabbing about Rahim - don't always blame your Rahim.
15. FertilAid by Fairhaven - FertilAid info
16. My FertilAid has arrived! - FertilAid info
17. PCOS Puzzle Solved by Twin Sisters - Interesting!  - just an info I found on the internet
18.The Dos and Donts of Having an Infertile Friend - MUST READ if u are NOT TTC.
19. Just Laugh! - just an info I found on the internet
20. Myth Terbaru - a friend suggested NEW ways to be fertile.
21. Yasmin - an info about Yasmin (Birth Control Pill) for PCOS.
22. LUMIGLOW pulak? - Lumiglow cream (natural progesterone cream - or so they say)
23. Laparascopy: Do it? Don't Do It? - when i was clueless whether to proceed Lapo.
24. Guidelines for us who are TTC CLUELESS - my own guideline i made for my TTC friends.
25. List of Supplements for PCOS -  just an info I found on the internet
26. PCOS: Get Pregnant Quickly? - what the Doctor says.
27. Excited about this new info - TURMERIC -  just an info I found on the internet
28. TURMERIC for PCOS -  just an info I found on the internet
29. Doing Research on Noni a.k.a Mengkudu -  just an info I found on the internet
30. Buah Zuriat & Dates Pollen -  just an info I found on the internet
31. The Dates Pollen Review - Review after trying the Dates Pollen (Serbuk Debunga Kurma)
32. Simple BBT Guide - a guideline i made if you wanted to start charting.
33. Siapa minum Low-Fat Milk? -  just an info I found on the internet
34. MILK - Jangan Salah Faham - my answer for your confusion
35. Change NOW, or Never -  just an info I found on the internet
36. Avocado: What have we missed? -  just an info I found on the internet
37. Mind and Body Power Works - how I finally got pregnant naturally (with PCOS)

My blabbings I found interesting myself. haha!

1.Are you pregnant? Or HAVE been pregnant? - my own thoughts
2. Manusia - entry marah :P
3. Infertility. When will it ends? - entry marah + membebel
4. IUI? No! - me and hubby's decision when we decided NOT to try IUI/IVF
5. She is so blessed - about the lady who conceived triplets after 6years TTC + my own thoughts
6. KEJAM - TTC Ladies, Read at your risk - just click :P
7. S.I.L - Sister In Law - when my SIL got pregnant again.
8. Mimpi - pasal mimpi ikan paus.
9. Cara & Tarikh Salah? - entry marah
10. Cara & tarikh Salah? (cont'd) - entry marah
11. I'M DONE, I HAD ENOUGH - entry marah / give up / had enough of everything :P konon
12. 1 Cinta 1 Lagu - Wani Ardy - about my friend who can't get pregnant bcoz she is born without uterus.
13. Kehadapan Fetus - a poem Wani Ardy wrote
14. Everyone's Lifestyles Are Different - entry marah 
15. Torture Ourselves - entry marah + membebel
16. Belajar - saje bebel
17. Kering dan Kebal - saje bebel
18. Why We Musn't "Canang" - saje bebel

My entries about Alternative Treatments I did before I conceived naturally.

http://findingtwolines.blogspot.com/search/label/Alternative%20Treatment

ps: wah sampai boleh buat Index ni? boleh buat e-book la?
hahaha...poyo je aku ni.

The Arrival of Baby Ikhlas

Remember my friend Wani Ardy the one with Rokitansky Syndrome ( no uterus since birth, adopting is the only way to have child) View link for her story -->1 Cinta 1 Lagu 
Allah swt finally answer their prayers and on 26th Sep 2012, lahirlah seorang Miracle Baby Boy seberat 3.8kg yang diberi nama IKHLAS.
I dont know what to say about Rezeki. Memang kita tak terlintas bila dia akan tiba.
Semuanya macam berlaku terlalu pantas, i got pregnant pun dah cukup memeranjatkan diri sendiri dan kawan2 rapat yang lain, but then Wani, dapat Ikhlas yang seolah2 mcm turun dari langit, pun terlalu pantas.
Alhamdulillah Allah tu maha Kaya.
Cerita macam mana Wani boleh dapat Ikhlas ni sangat panjang tapi memang Subhanallah. Semua nya terlalu pantas. Dah namanya memang rezeki, kita tak bersedia pun tiba2 dia muncul :')
Terharu tengok Wani & Syafiq (her husband) happy gila dah dapat anak.
Walaupun anak angkat, aku percaya Wani boleh buat semua untuk Ikhlas, sampai jadi macam anak kandung.

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This is quoted from Wani by her Facebook

Wani Grtnprwknt Ardy

Subhanallah. How can I not say that my husband Syafiq Zakaria and our baby Ikhlas are not a perfect package of miracle?

10 years ago I was diagnosed with Rokitansky Syndrome; a gift to 1 in every 5000 women.
I was born with no uterus and small kidneys (among other abnormalities – nothing fatal, alhamdulillah!).
I grew up thinking I will never get married, never have a child, no man would want me as a wife, and no parents would want me as a daughter-in-law. I thought I would either be a first wife or a burden.
My mom advised me not to get married because she loved me so much and she wanted to protect me (and my heart from breaking).

It was hard not to fall in love though, so I went through relationships.

Two men left me (partly) because of my condition.
One of them could actually accept me-- but his parents couldn’t.
Some others were left by ME, because I was too insecure and emotional and selfish.

I was with Syafiq when a (heartless?) doctor laughed at my condition during a check-up.
“So you DO have a boyfriend? He said he CAN accept this? Hahahah. Good luck with THAT.”

Well doctor, alhamdulillah we got married, and he has been my perfect soulmate ever since; the best decision I’ve ever made in 28 years of my life. :) I love you to infinity, sayang. Thank you so much! ♥

Early this year, my ‘womanly features’ started to ‘shrink’ (among other symptoms). And so a few months ago, I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure (early menopause) and I am somewhat prone to cancer. A few weeks later, they found out that I have cyst too. I had a lot to digest. :')

I am not the strongest person in the world – I rise and fall like everyone – but I try to make sure that every time I fall, I pick myself up. And I never stop dreaming. And hoping. And praying. Having hopes breaks my heart many times, but I can’t seem to stop being a hardheaded fool. Now I understand why.

A day after our 2nd anniversary, Almighty Allah ‘cured’ me by answering our silent prayers. Ikhlas was born, alhamdulillah, not from my womb but as Ikhlas’s new parents, we would do anything in the world for him. So far, we have a good relationship with his birth mother – masyaallah – and we pray for this good relationship to continue as we pray for Allah to allow the 3 of us to grow old together. Amin!

I'm not special; I'm just like any other human being. Like you, I too have my own battles. Currently I’m fighting to breastfeed my son (thank you girlfriends for generously sharing tips!) and I’m fighting for a one-month leave (paid or unpaid) to give my newborn the fullest attention he needs. A recent conversation I had with a (heartless?) officer at the registrar’s office upset me BUT, I am not giving up.

-“Awak ni siapa, nak minta cuti sebulan? Awak bukan bersalin pun, bukan mengandung pun.”
-“Ya, sebab tu saya minta sebulan, bukan 3 bulan macam maternity leave. Cuti ni bukan untuk saya; untuk anak saya.”
-“Dia bukan anak awak pun. Awak bukan mak dia. Lagi 2 tahun baru boleh rasmi, kan?”
-“Ya, tapi takkan nak tunggu 2 tahun baru boleh cuti jaga anak? Kalau bulan pertama dalam hidup dia pun saya tak boleh nak berkorban, ambil cuti sebulan, baik tak payah berusaha ambil anak angkat.”
-“Tak kiralah. Kita memang takda cuti untuk orang macam awak ni. Awak bukannya mengandung.”
-“Baiklah, encik. Kalau gitu, bagi saya jalan lain macam mana nak mengajar, bermesyuarat segala sambil susukan anak 2 jam sekali. Sorok dia bawah meja?”
-“Itu saya tak tahulah.”

I’ve been fighting my whole life and I will not stop, especially now that I have another reason to live and to wake up every morning. I’m loving motherhood and I am grateful beyond words to be lent an experience I never thought would happen in my lifetime. Allahuakbar. Bonda and apak love you, Ikhlas!

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my baby dah ada kawan dah ;) wah, Ikhlas tahun depan jadi Abam Besar la :D hehe..insyallah.....
So happy for Wani :)
Sepanjang tahun ni asyik terlepas nak dapat anak angkat, we tell her, takpe lah belum ada rezeki. Tapi mcm mana kecewa nya keguguran, period, failed IUI whatever, mcm tu jugak frustnya Wani mase terlepas nak ambik baby. Ada je halangan dan tiba2 ada oranglain dah ambik.
Tapi kali ni sangat dipermudahkan, Alhamdulillah, Syukur pada Allah. Semoga Ikhlas akan jadi anak yang soleh, taat pada ibubapa dan jadi orang berguna :)

Isn't he Beautiful. Subhanallah Miracle from Allah.

RE-CAP

Dari awal kahwin, macam mana kisah TTC aku ni sampai menjadi kali ni?

2009 - Kahwin 3 January 2009 - on my 25th Birthday. 

Berangan kunun nak 'rilek2' dulu setahun. sebab kami ni tak penah bercinta gamaknya. Orang lain bercouple bagai before kawin. aku ni taksempat. Bercinta baru 2minggu terus kena prepare barang tunang sebab dia dah nak hantar rombongan merisik. huhuhuhu 

Pertengahan 2009 - Lupekan je plan untuk 'rilek2' sebab dah mula sakit ati dengan pertanyaan orang ramai pasal Dah Ada Isi ke? 

Jan 2010 - Masih tak kisah pasal tak pregnant tapi bila baca kat internet katenye kalau setahun tak conceive naturally, maksudnya tak subur and must seek for fertility treatment sebelum terlambat. Mula berurut rahim dengan seorang makcik ni. Makcik tu kata rahim aku senget. die betulkan. Bapak sakit gila. Tapi berurut tu kalau period pun tunggang langgang, tak guna sbenanya.

Feb 2010 - Start jumpa gynae kat klinik Umra. Start the Medical TTC Journey (Clomid, Diane35,) 1st attempt failed. 2nd attempt failed. 

July 2010 - Baru diagnosed with PCOS via ultrasound. Dapat ubat lain pulak. (Diane35, Letrozole, hCG Shot, Duphaston) - Failed

Oct 2010 - Conceived but endup chemical pregnancy. ( i had chemical pregnancy 3 times tapi dah malas nak ingat time bila tapi smua dalam same year iaitu 2010)

Dec2010 - Changed gynae to Dr Delaila. suggested to proceed hSG test utk tgk tubes dulu. Result: alhamdulillah ALL is clear. no blockage. 

Feb 2011 - Prescribed with Letrozole again - no egg development. -failed. 

June 2011 - Dr Delaila suggested to proceed with Gonal-F treatment. Aku terus refused sebab memang taknak menyeksa jiwa cucuk2 sana sini. so i decided to STOP EVERYTHING and be happy! hidup berdua tak berdosa pun kan!!!! Other gynae suggested IUI but me & hubby agreed that we wont do any LAB-making baby. Unless, Unlesssss I really can't conceived naturally. so maybe will consider IUI. Refer IUI? No! 

A year later 

May 2012 - cuba berubat cara islamic sebab asyik dapat mimpi pelik. diagnosed with more than 3 ustazs that i was disturbed by a jinn. who wants to damage my reproductive system.

tak percaya. cuba baca yassin banyak2 and tibe2 perut sangat sakit lepas baca yassin. dan banyak petanda lain yang obvious dan takboleh dibiarkan.

June 2012 - proceed with islamic treatment (bedah batin) please view Alternative Treatment Labels

All story is there, please dont ask me again sebab cerita nya panjang, everything that u want to know is under that label. Maaf, cerita memang PANJANG GILA and i dont know how to pendekkan cerita. 

June 2012 - started natural treatment mcm entry kat bawah ni. 

Sep 2012 - Finally conceived naturally, alhamdulillah. Harap2 selamat hingga lahir, amin Ya Rabb.